D: Date Rape

05 April 2016

Happy Tuesday, lovelies! Thanks so much for following my A to Z Challenge. It's been a tough but rewarding challenge focusing on such tough subjects as "Child Abuse Prevention" and "Sexual Assault Awareness". Today being 5 April it is time to focus on "D" and a chance for me to share my own story, if you will indulge.

D is for Date Rape. For some of us this is a subject that hits home and for others not. Did you know that every 107 seconds, another American is sexually assaulted? According to RAINN (Rape, Abuse, and Incest National Network):
44% of victims are under 18
80% of victims are under 30
68% of assaults are NOT reported to the police
98% of rapists will NEVER spend a day in jail!
Approx. 4/5 of assaults are committed by someone known to the victim
47% of rapists are friends/acquaintances

If those stats are not chilling enough, according to the FBI only 7 of every 32 rapes reported to the police ever lead to an arrest and less then half of those are referred to prosecutors!

And for my gentlemen readers, please know that you are not alone either. A study conducted in England reported that:
3% of males surveyed reported experiencing non-consensual sex as adults
5% experienced non-consensual sex as children (under 16 years of age)
8% experienced consensual (yet illegal) sex as children

Now if you will indulge me, allow me to share a BRIEF version of my story for the first time on such a public platform and hopefully this will encourage my readers. Thirteen years ago today (5 April 2003) I was raped by two men I called friends and an ex-boyfriend at a house party in Encino, California. I was threatened that I could not tell anyone what had happened because it was "my fault" since I had not put out sexually for my ex-boyfriend. So I hid my pain and the truth despite the fact that friends and family say I was noticeably a shadow of my usual bubbly happy self. Fast forward four months or so and a friend got wind of the truth and urged me to go to counseling and the police. I relented and went to counseling at university but would not go to the police out of fear and shame. It was not until my rapists began to threaten me again and literally stalk/attack me that I finally went to the police. I remember the day clear as if it was today. I was taking a walk near my house when one of the guys came up and started threatening me about calling the police and gave me a nice shiner. As if in a daze, I walked home and when my mum saw my face she called 9-1-1.

Police arrived and started taking photos of my face right in the front yard in front of my neighbors and nosy bystanders. The next days went by in a blur as I had to talk with the police in Orange County (where I was stalked), Los Angeles County (where I was raped) and Ventura County (where I was stalked and attacked). It was a nightmare and I can sympathize with anyone who does not want to deal with the police and the agony of telling your story time and time again, being grilled to make sure you are telling the truth, and having to relive the nightmare. However there are some very good and kind hearted police officers who care. I met one of those in Los Angeles and unfortunately I have forgotten her name so cannot give her a shout out but please be assured that there are good people out there that truly care.

Greg Totten (c) Ventura County
Same goes with the District Attorney's office. I had made reports in three counties and was amazed and grateful to have heard from the Ventura County DA, Greg Totten, who called me at home shortly after my assault with words of kindness and support. Even though my rapists never were arrested and brought to justice, just knowing that Mr. Totten cared and took the time to personally call went a long way towards boosting my spirits and helping the healing process begin.

Therapy was also a huge help and again they are a dime a dozen. Some good and some bad but whoever you go to see, make sure you NEVER feel blame and guilt during your sessions. That is a therapist you should steer clear of! The same goes for friends/family. Your friends and family should NEVER make you feel dirty and at fault. Those are the friends and family members you can wash your hands of. Anyone who has been sexually assaulted needs people who will listen, hold your hand, and just sit there eating icy cold ice cream by your side. As A.A. Milne put it:

“Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind.
"Pooh!" he whispered.
"Yes, Piglet?"
"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw. "I just wanted to be sure of you.”
A.A. Milne, The House at Pooh Corner

Thanks loves for reading my lengthy post and hearing my story! I am thrilled to declare myself a conqueror of my situation but even after 13 years I have troubles on the days leading up to 5 April so am very grateful for family and friends who truly care and surround me in love and prayers. I hope everyone has that sort of support system. God bless you!
Joy

HUGS for all my fellow sexual assault conquerors!

17 comments:

  1. Oh sweetie, thanks for sharing your story. You might not ever realize who might be reading this and who was helped by it; they may never leave a comment. I am sorry you experienced something like this, but I'm glad you finally got help through therapy and letting others know what you had experienced. It was despicable what was done to you. I am sorry they were not persecuted for their crime. I'm glad too you have the support system you have. Hugs to you.

    betty

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  2. I am so sorry that you experienced that, and that it became a part of your life and existence. It was incredibly brave of you to share that post, and the best thing of all is that you came out of it with a strong voice, both advocating for yourself and for others who have also suffered such terrible abuse.

    I hope that some day, you can turn April 5 into a day that reminds you of your strength.

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  3. I have heard so many stories of sexual assault, and having experienced my own, it makes my blood boil. I am so sorry you had to go through this, and I'm sorry you will forever associate April 5 with that horrible day and event you experienced.

    Even though the perpetrators were not arrested or cited, know you did the right thing by reporting it. Only be speaking out can this nightmare ever end.

    Many, many gentle hugs.

    @dSavannahCreate from
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    #AtoZChallenge2016 theme: dSavannah Defects

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    1. I am so sorry about your own assault! Thanks for reading and joining me in this challenge. What a great experience this first week has been.

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  4. Thank you for being so brave and sharing this horrific experience.
    There are some who find it incredibly difficult to process and deal with this kind of trauma.
    Thank you for lending them a voice!
    You are a true champion!
    Writer In Transit

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  5. Hi,

    I cannot imagine what you went through. And you are very brave. I have never had a to face anything this horrible. But it is my worst fear. And I have a daughter so I will always have such fears.

    Seena
    #AtoZChallenge- E is for Eating for two

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    1. Loving your daughter is the best gift you can give her. I am so grateful for my own mum.

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  6. It is very brave of you to share your story. It is incredibly frustrating to hear that they have never been arrested. :( I teach about rape every semester in my classes, and students are always shocked by the numbers - especially the number of how many assailants go unpunished... A very, very important topic to talk about!

    @TarkabarkaHolgy from
    The Multicolored Diary
    MopDog

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    1. You teach about rape? Bravo you!

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  7. Thanks for sharing your story. Also, I commend you for talking about such difficult subjects. I often talk about difficult subjects on my blog and what you are doing is important because it helps educate and bring awareness. Cassie from Mommy, RN

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  8. Wow. I'm so impressed. You sound like you're in a really good place. It was brave for you to tell us something so very personal.
    Keep moving forward.

    Heather M. Gardner / @hmgardner
    Co-Host, Blogging from A to Z April Challenge
    The Waiting is the Hardest Part

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  9. Thank you for sharing your story. *sends hugs*

    Anna
    ATSP @ Deeply Shallow
    @natzers

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x Joy

 

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